Secret Subject Swap: Crazy Love

Welcome to a Secret Subject Swap. This week, 12 brave bloggers picked a secret subject for someone else and were assigned a secret subject to interpret in their own style. Today we are all simultaneously divulging our topics and submitting our posts.

Here are links to all the sites now featuring Secret Subject Swap posts. Sit back, grab a cup, and check them all out. See you there:

Baking In A Tornado

The Insomniac’s Dream

The Gamer’s Corner

Moms Don’t SayThat

Stacy Sews and Schools

Home on Deranged

Discovering Me

The Black Sheep Mom

Spatulas on Parade

Confessions of a part-time working mom

Rants From My Crazy Kitchen           

My Subject is: The Craziest Thing You Did To Impress A Guy. Submitted by
Spatulas on Parade.

I was excited to be a part of this swap. It is right up my writing alley. I didn't have to use my own brain to think of a subject, I could let someone else do that. All I had to do was a little copy and paste action then just let the thoughts flow from my head to my keyboard. 

The email with my subject came in right after I finished writing a (still unpublished) piece about the men in my life and my lack of childhood wedding dreams. 

"I never was one of those girls who would fantasize about her wedding day. Men intimidated me and I couldn’t imagine trusting one so deeply that I would want to vow my eternal love to him."

I re-read my prompt three times before bursting out laughing. I was never the kind of girl to do things to impress a guy. My mindset was always that if he didn't like me for me, he could leave. Plus, the idea of keeping up an act was exhausting. Ain't nobody got time for that.

Then, as always, the anxiety hit. Now what do I do? I got the one topic I had no response to. I turned to my husband to talk it out with him. After I rambled on and on about how i never did anything to impress anyone and asking him 57 million times if he remembered me doing anything out of character to woo him, he sat in front of me and smiled. 

"No," he said and smiled again.

There it was. There was my post. There was my answer. The craziest thing I ever did to impress a guy?

I was myself. 

And if you know me, that in itself is pretty cray cray.

So here I am, at what I thought would be the conclusion of this piece. It was all wrapped up neatly. I was pleased with my answer. Done and done. Until I realized the one, big, thing I ever did to impress a guy.

I tossed away pretenses, I let go of hurt, I allowed him in when I vowed not to. I fell head over heels in love when I vowed to myself I wouldn't.

And then, I married him.

Guess it worked. He was impressed and 11 1/2 years later, I do not regret a thing.